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>I was born in Franklin Pa nearly 32 years ago.. Basically was raised a
>small town / country boy. I have had till last year 4 brothers and 3
>sisters.. tho most of em were moved out of the house by the time I come
>along .. I had a fairly happy Childhood.. Can't complain really were
>poor at times welfare poor.. eating grit sandwiches poor LOL maybe not
>that poor but lack of employment oppurtunies and a bad resession kept my
>mom and dad and I moving around bout since I was born.. I have lived in
>quite a few places.. Pa , Fl , North carolina . wv
>and most of em before I was even five years old.. each one was an
>adventure tho and I really enjoyed all the traveling...
>
>Things in our lives greatly improved around 1983 we finally had our
>first color tv and decent place to live and were not living with
>relatives PTL.
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>but that same year my dad had a heart attack from all the stress we had
>been through and due to too strong of medications he had been on for
>other problems and died in July of that same year.. and struggles we had
>some..
>
>In feburary of 1984 my mom and I moved to Florida the sunshine state..
>it was not an easy decision.. and one at the time I hated because I knew
>somehow our lives woulden't be the same. I was right.. During this time
>my mom did every kind of Job to keep us afloat.. and yet found time to
>help me deal with lifes problems..the worse I come to find out years
>later was really bad depression... not to mention and anger deep deep
>within my reseses .. that would come out at the worst times.. I knerly
>busted my hand on a coke machine because it stole my fifty cents God
>later revealed I had a spirit of anger and broke that off of me..
>
>I accepted Christ for the First time when I was 13 but it didn't really
>take the first time out.. I had a lot of anger inside of me whitch I
>fueled with Heavy metal rock music ... and spending countless hours in
>my room alone... I didn't know what was going on at the time...I knew I
>was angry at my dad dying... I hated Florida hated my teachers I hated
>everything ... most of all I hated myself...
>
>I later made a real commitment to Christ at 16 .. I have since then
>struggled with morid obesity depression , anger anxiety ... unrealistic
>fears.. mental torment satanic oppression that would of driven lesser
>ppl to take their own life..
>
>My testimony is not nicey nicey.. it is not even one that would make one
>want to be a Christian if he or she looked at the outward part of my
>life.. in fact the truth be known my testimony is one of great
>suffering.... I have suffered from great emotional and spiritual
>destress to the point of not caring whether I lived or died.. for I did
>not care I had lost my passion for living somewhere along the line... I
>suffered great personal loss last year... The loss of my brother Ron..
>my Job my girlfriend.. my van my finances... my health and my self
>esteem...
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>in Fact beyond a vow I made to the Lord I donot know where I go from
>here..... why would one want to be Christian why would anyone want to
>live that kind of life and still be in that kind of suffering and
>pain..... The answer to that is easy that pain and suffering would of
>come regardless we have no control over lifes difficultys . what makes
>me want to be a Christian... and why it has been worth being a
>Christian... is this ... I would of not lived to be nearly 32 years old
>and would not be typing this testimony out right now... and you would
>not have had the pleasure of knowing me enough said ?
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